Monday, June 20, 2016

I have got mine now

Alhamdulillah thumma Alhamdulillah thumma Alhamdulillah 

After 5 years of tears, sweat and smiles I made it to the graduation day 
A dentist to be specific *smile* 

There’s no one else on this earth I would like to dedicate my success to, 
If it wasnt because of your countless dua’s umi & abah 
I wouldn’t make it to this pinnacle of success. 

Thank you so much. So so much

To think that I’ll be home again, lazing around in the house.. Its strange. It has been yearsss! To see you everyday.. 
I’ll take my own sweet time for sure
Answering and listenin to your ceramah about working, life, marriage more often now..
I'm listenin, I'm good
As long as you’re happy
I’ve got mine
Just a few weeks ago
The day you hugged me during my graduation ceremony saying how proud you are seeing me walking on that stage clad in a graduation robe and a hat
And since that day, I promised to be a good daughter the best I can

Even I know
Im nowhere near to repay them

Tuesday, March 22, 2016

This is my fight song

In less than 4 months
It will be 5 years I'm in dental school. Alhamdulillah

To be true..

The idea of giving up came into my mind every second existed
Assuring myself that I can do this.. I can do this..  I can do this.. countless times
That I'm not sure if it will work anymore in the future

Motivating myself in the middle of the night
when I get bad dreams about tomorrow
That 'this shall pass too'

Looking back how far I have gone just to tell myself
I cant possibly give up

Coming into the clinic with a mindset
'I have gone thru this before'
So when im being yelled for the mistakes I am responsible on
I will not break down in front of the patients

For all the promises made
I prepared myself to not hold on to it until it happens
So when the promises were broken
I still have the strength to walk home

Forcing myself to think that
everything that happens,
there's always a reasons why Allah wants it to happen
And then,
I can paint a smile on my face no matter how hard it is to accept

Squeezing 'work out' in my schedule
So when I need to repeat my works over and over again
I have the muscles to depend on

Reassuring myself not to cry
after every rejection I get
As a YES always come in pair with a NO

Planting courage as high as the mountain
so when I need it, I can go for it without hesitation

Refrain myself from letting my emotion to take control of me
So I can think logically
when problem arises

Making sure that I eat a lot in the morning
So when I have to spend the whole day in the clinic
I am strong

Physically & mentally Drained
Is just a temporary condition
And in one night, It will be a new me.


Friday, January 29, 2016

Auny B survival Tips!


When Afnan was born last October, I wrote something about giving updates and pictures of baby G (which is Afnan Zakiyya) soon.

Here I am forcing myself to fulfill my promise now before Afnan turns 17..

So, picture first!

Amoi turned 3 months old last January, 23th

Thanks to Amoi, Anty B learned that babies are the most incredible bosses. Ever!
Well that was before, anty become cleverer by time.. :P
 that your crocodile tears can never fool me anymore.. *pat on my shoulder*

Please dont send me to aunties rehab centre pls. 

I still remember in the young days of me being anty to Amoi, it was a whole new experience. 
She smile when I smile.
 Then she start giggling. 

life wasnt that easy gais

I was wrong when I thought what was in her mind was 'I am her new friend'. 

no friend treated her friend this way

Amoi pee on me
pee on me
and muntah on me

A lots

*wipe tears*

The first time I heard Amoi crying, I was as fast as lightning 
running to get her
third time I started brisk walking

and now, 
"Amoi crying again is it?.. *munching kerepek*

let her lungs do some exercise...

After some exercise done


Jokess Afnan.. Anty was just joking.. <3 comment-3--="">

You are apple of my eyes.. 
Bangun pagi cari Afnan, 
Breakfast cari Afnan, 
Lunch cari Afnan
Afnan balik rumah, anty scroll gambar Afnan..

Buah hati pengarang jantung pisang intan payung anty. did I miss any fruit to include???

Walaupun menangis suara terus Gear 88.. 
My alarm buzzes the same way.. 

So Afnan, nothing much I want to say just..
Please be grateful.. *cough*

Anty B

p/s: I will loyally wait for the time we can be 'real' friends