Tuesday, March 22, 2016

This is my fight song

This is my fight song
Take back my life song
Prove I'm allright song
My power's turned on
Starting right now I'll be strong
I'll play my fight song
And I dont really care if nobody else believes
Cause I've still got a lot of fight left in me..

In less than 4 months
It will be 5 years I am in dentistry school. Alhamdulillah.

I am such a big liar if I say, the idea of giving up never came into my mind
Assuring myself that I can do this.. I can do this..  I can do this.. countless times
That I am not sure if it will work anymore in the future

Motivating myself in the middle of the night
when I get bad dreams about tomorrow
That 'this shall pass too'

Looking back how far I have gone just to tell myself
I cant possibly give up

Coming into the clinic with a mindset
'I have gone thru this before'
So when im being yelled for the mistakes I am responsible on
I will not break down in front of the patients

For all the promises made
I prepared myself to not hold on to it until it happens
So when the promises were broken
I still have the strength to walk home

Forcing myself to think that
everythings that happens,
there's always a reasons why Allah wants it to happen
And then,
I can paint a smile on my face no matter how hard it is to accept

Squeezing 'work out' in my schedule
So when I need to repeat my works over and over again
I have the muscles to depend on

Reassuring myself not to cry
after every rejection I get
As a YES always come in pair with a NO

Planting courage as high as the mountain
so when I need it, I can go for it without hesitation

Refrain myself from letting my emotion to take control of me
So I can think logically
when problem arises

Making sure that I eat a lot in the morning
So when I have to spend the whole day in the clinic
I am strong

Physically & mentally Drained
Is just a temporary condition
And in one night, It will be a new me.